Origin Date: 9 May 2006: Age 13

9:51pm
I talked to my mom last night about the thing with Venti [dad] and we agreed he is a childish hypocrite who needs to go back to therapy and if he has another blow up like this I will consider adjusting the time I spend with him because he's just always using the excuse that he overreacted and is under stress, you know what? Me too! and so is the rest of the world but we try not to let it affect the other parts of our lives and I am now done talking about this distasteful subject.
9:56pm
I have decided to try harder with Connor; what if he's the one and I let it fail because I'm pining over someone who doesn't like me... Which leads to another thing, Paolo says he likes someone besides Christi and that she is one of the biggest bitches at our school.
He wouldn't tell me who, which makes me suspicious but I almost don't want to be the girl if it means that he thinks I'm a bitch... hmm
Maybe Marie? I duno, I think he thinks Zack and I are gonna tell people or something cuz we made one joke about him not thinking Em's boobs were big, behind his back (the joke of course) and he got really upset... Weird, I know.
10:02pm
my hand is all sweaty
did I mention I'm sick?
Ya, last night right before bed I started feeling terrible— I had a headache, congestion, chills, nausea, and so today I went to school for testing and then my dad came to get me—
I just drew a bleeding heart on my leg—
Why does everyone have to think I'm depressed? I mean, I guess I sort of am, but I hate being the goth girl, and I'm not supposed to be... I mean I have a nice bf and all but I'm still depressed...hmm
I have to write a couple more poems for my book, so I think I'll work on that, maybe I'll be cheery, ha!
:)

Stepping over puddles
avoiding your problems
trying to get away with things
only looking at your gems

never recognizing
the problems that you face
or trying to put them out of mind
so you don't have the space?

How about when your son
commits suicide
is it your problem then?

Just tell me what the deciding factor is
and then I will know when

to let you down nice and hard
and tell you your problem.

NOTE:
Previous entries concerning Connor and Paolo eliminated because stupid and embarrassing. I like the randomness of these.